I tried to ignore

I tried to ignore, ignore the pain…..

Wanted to stay blind, but in vain…..

I wanted to lock it, I wanted to block it

From their life and from my heart

I built a wall, a strong one too

That was my ignorance, for I overlooked the cracks

Only coz I wanted to stay blind, but in vain….

I wanted to protect, I wanted to keep them safe

Safe from guilt and safe from pain

I buried my thoughts deep in my heart

That was my ignorance, for I overlooked the tears

Only coz I wanted to stay blind, but in vain….

Now I realize I cannot be blind, I cannot avoid the pain

Everywhere I find, only their disdain

I want to turn blind again

But should it be for my pain or their disdain?